Thursday, August 20, 2009


Hi hi...miss me?? heheh...
yeah my blog's preettty empty rite?? Coz my computer is stupidly slow n i hate to wait n dat explains all...even the layout of this blogspot is different...what the hell happen??

Anyway, work's is fine.. Coping and lotsa learning to do.. but im enjoyin it there thou there's complains from me here n there..hehe

Nutin much to say actuali coz my mind's empty..juz out of random..n also to extend my congrats to my dear gf, Sue who had given birth to finally a boy!! i also wana a baby boy!!hmmm...

N also on a lighter note, juz wana give all my support to my another gf, liz, whose both dads are in hospital..One critically ill while the othr hav some blood complications.. I hope evrytin's gona b alrite for u and be strong coz evrytin that happen has a reason behind it,so hold on, gal!

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Saturday, August 8, 2009

12. Lost

Ive not been sleeping, eating and thinking well.. i dunno whthr its the reaction to the news.. I wonder y it still bothrs me when ive tried so hard to let it go...
It didnt ever cross my mind I could ever have this moment to myself.
Where all my thoughts crashed, where my mind stopped functioning.

It hurts, yes it did.

It hurt more knowing that I caused the pain upon myself.

This pain, Its too familiar, the pain ive felt few yrs back..

I recovered, my pain gone. But the wound just wouldnt heal.

I believe god will give what I deserve. Nothing less, nothing more.

Im helpless and so lost, I leave it to God.

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Monday, July 27, 2009

12. a bitch STILL

ive actually gotten over you, really but seeing you last Sat was reali not a good thing.. Everything seems to flash back again and again...
Your words, your lies and your empty promises never seemed to go in hand with what you said to me; "I am a lady and i perfectly understand how you feel"..Oh damn you..u never reli do...
And staring at me doesnt help, dun be a coward.. Bitching behind my back, checking out my profiles and trying to find out more about me, wat's your problem??
You seriously need to take care of yourself first.. I dun nid xtra care from you..
seriously, i dun wan to be reminded of you but i just cant help it and having nowhere else to pour my hatred words, i pen it down here...
I dun care if you gona read it or whoeva is gona pass it to you coz you wana play this game first, rite??
I just hope one fine day, the same thing..oops sorry THINGS you did to me will happen to u or i just hope your sickly father or mother will rot in hell..
Coz i tink your parents have not brought you up well to mind your own shits..
i may not be as good or an angel but at least i dun go around snatching other people's boyfriend..
so juz bug off, you BITCH.
i dun wana display your name here coz it will dirty my blog..i dun wan my things to be as filthy as pls MYOB

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Friday, July 24, 2009

11. LOVE

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two

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Wednesday, July 15, 2009


Yeah ive been on hiatus for at least a wile..
Been wanting to blog actually, but im super super tired...
Duno whether its the work or just me..
My body's aching and mind's not working...

so wwen im ready to update again, i will..

till then tk cr my lovely peeps....

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Wednesday, July 1, 2009

9.3 Days...

Its my third day officially teaching at Eden.

My first day was very very tiring.. I had two boys under my care and surprisingly I came back feeling tired and It felt like I cant even feel the floor anymore.. I had to chase one of my boy cause he was super sensitive to niose. A bit of screaming or screeching can cause him to react and run out of the class.. So i end up chasing after him everytime...
My second boy was super impatient. He cant wait for anyone.. Ask him to wait and he will start banging his head on the wall or start to scream... So imagine my firts day..

My second day was much much better...They were more settled and made them follow the routines more strictly.. So it wasnt as bad as my first day.. Still there were screaming and banging heads but less chasing were done...

Today's the third day there and it seemed things are fallin in... A lot of paper works had to be done and task folders had to be self made.. So we are rushing for all these things to be ready before our consultants come in the classes...

Though tiring, i flt it were so much of an enriching experience.. Alot of people duno wats autism is... Most people will judge that a child with autism had behavioural problems, but in actual fact the dun... They only do not noe how to explain their feelings and express it so therefore they will bang their heads or scream or floor when they are very very stress...

So teaching and understanding them really needs PATIENCE...especially for me i must be always remind myself that...

i hope the journey's will get interesting as days numbered...

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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

8.Reality Check

The holiday
I cant believe i slept from 5pm to 9pm... thats four hours!!
Since holidays, im having insomia almost every day... Cant sleep wile others are dreaming away...

Now that im back from K.L n work has started, the clock hadmswitched back its timing...
K.L trip was fun! Despite having to quarrel with the stupid GRO from the Quality Hotel, the rest was splendid... Never do much shopping actually coz busy buying the 'kain' for my aunties and mummy..

The food at Rebung was splendin... All the Peranakan and Nyonya dishes... Very tasty la....Anyone going K.L should go and eat there...
Many thanks to cuzin Fir and his friend Azlan, for showing us around the city..

The reality
K.L aside and back to reality... My first day at Eden yesterday was great... Nutin much to do..Some administrative things like issuing the school pass, my email add and table was done early in the morning... then Juz reading up the students profile and learning more about Autism... pretty interesting as alot of facts about Autism i didnt noe! A lot of learnin to do...
Today's the second day there, setting up the classroom and doing the IEP's.. pretty blurrr still actually...hehhe

I dunno wat it will be when school re opens but ill still giv my every effort and heart to it... So will update more when the real thing starts and good nyte peeps!

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Thursday, June 18, 2009

7. Tired, tired

Its been a tiring day- becoming mum's chauffer for the day...
First, went to facial with her at Bukit Batok..Ive never been to any 'real' facial before and to my shocking horror its soooo painful..Okay pardon me, coz ive the least tolerance level for pain..hehe
Besides the pain, my pocket's gonna be empty soon... The whole package that i signed up cost nearly five hundred! Women, anything for the name of beauty! duh!

After the facial, went to Jurong Point, had lunch and dinner and to meet my aunt there. After J.P, went to Turf City on behalf of abang to collect the rented car as we are going K.L tomorrow.
Shivering u noe, driving the Odyseey. Very the big la dat car... hmmm...wen can i afford dat car eh? heheh..

Okay juz updating wat ive done today.. Now going to bathe and to sleep soon.. tomorrow got a long long long day...
Aniway, tomorow im off driving up to K.L.. so dun miss me peeps!!

Have a gd weekend!

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Wednesday, June 17, 2009

6. Prawn Fishing

ive gone superly crazy over this!!! im addicted to it...

Hundreds of dollars have been contributed to the place..Haiyo! Sumone please find me a less expensive hobbyIn actual fact, im not the only victim...

Here's one of the victim...Look at him.... =)
Lutfi Aqil, he's so cute la... Trying to act out how to prawn fish.
He can actually show step by step, how to do it..
You can see the picture on the below he is concentrating on the 'rod' in the pond...
Then you can actually see from the blurred picture that he is showing that he caught a prawn...
" A big one" he said in malay....
Cute, isnt he?
Look at his happy, cheeky face...

"One more time" he said...
Oh Lutfi, i hope my boy's gone be as cute as u la..hehe

See, so im not the only one who's addicted to it.. There are people like me too..

Okay, no matter wat cut down on it Linda, else u gona eat prawns all month long...

Im trying.... no promises thou =)

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p/s i duno wat the hell happen to the alignment and there's a huge space at the bottom of the above entry so juz bear with it okay.. =)

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

5.My Day

Today i woke up at the sound of my handphone msg beeping me with aliz aking me to go joggin..
She juz came back from her night shift, and me having too much sleep and doing nothing almost every day,decided dat it might be a good idea since i have laid in my bed for dunno how many hours for almost two weeks now...
Im going insane seriously...Nobody is free to be hooked up.. =(
Everyone is of course, working... Thats about holidays- u want it to come quickly, but when it comes, u just get bored!
Anyone wants to be my full time entertainer?? *winks winks*

Aniway, back to the topic of me and aliz going jogging (we didnt jog actuali, just walk briskly..heh), we walked all the way from our nearby park till the big longkang and back to our blocks! Very far right?!!?? Along the way, we spotted people fishing, people walking their dogs and a dirty dirty longkang (haiyo!)..
Its pretty refreshing actually coz i had never attempted to walk/jog early in the morning..
After that, we grab breakfast and then head on to aliz's hse to eat..

Around 12 plus, went back home, took a quick shower and lied on my my storybook and guess wat?? Obviously, i feel asleep...Just woke up actually...
So dats about what ive done, half of my day... At least it is more meaningful today, isnt it??
Ive nutin much to say actually, just feel like blogging, coz u noe, ive too much free time to kill..

Tink i better go and shower, coz im sticky all over from the heat...So hope u guys had a good day!

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Tuesday, June 9, 2009


Why is he the total opposite of me??
Does the phrase "Opposite attratcs" can be rely here????
I hate this and he likes that...
Im talking about A and he talks about Z...
I love pasta and pizza and he loves rice and bread...
Its so hard to communicate...
And its gettin on my Nerves!!!!
I hate it and i hate how it feels!!!!!!!
Can i just run away from all this??
Someone pls help!
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3.Yakuza Moon

Ive just finished reading this book "Yakuza Moon".. and I can say its a very good story..
A cuzin of mine borrowed it to me and at first i tot it would not be of any interest to me, but after reading it, i tot its a very good book..
Just imagined i burnt my sleep for 2 days straight just to finished the book..heheh..

A heartfelt story, noting much about the yakuza actually..just that the author comes from the yakuza fmily as her father was the head of the yakuza commitee..
And so the story is about the author going thru bullying, deliquency, drugs, love, violence, marriage, divorce, debt, eating disorder , sickness and death.
The language used is very simple and easy to understand.
Wat moves me more, is how the author hang on despite the hardships she have to go thru and even helped her siblings at the expense of her own life.And she had truly shown the meaning of "FAMILY"~ its a place she describe as the happieset place always...

Read on coz its truly an enriching story..

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2. Happenings

Its the most awaited time of the year for educators especially, again!!Yeah as fun as it sounds, alot of things are happening...and some are not so fun at all..Some things, for a long time it has been going on, i simply have no idea at all..

I seriously dunno what u or ur gf have against me 'I' but you noe wats the situation like and pls for watever reason dat ur gf have; pls ask her to stop all her stupid remarks and gossips..It has gotten really out of hands, involving families which i never wanted them to be involved in the first place, and there; the cat's out of the bag..Watever it is, i dun care wat others say about me as long as its the truth but u shld noe what's going around and whose spreading it.. pls 'I'..As for your future concerns 'I' , I can only wished u the best and i hope u will be happy with wat u have.. If i cant be depended upon, like u said, i hope u had found the person u can depend on to go thru ups and downs of ur life..Dun worry, im used to ur hurtful words and ive been living with that thou its been 8yrs now, ur words, good or bad, sweet or cruel are still playing in my mind..
There are so many unexplained things betwn u and me, but i reckon it had no use for areadi..U had moved on to a new chapter of ur life, im happy for u thou it sounds 'fake'..watever

Now for the happy side, im finnalllly gettin my dreams to work with the special needs children..Im pretty excited and nervous at the same time..Well, for the sake of the super looonng interviews that i had with them, i have to give it a try and my bestest..Thank you my people, for giving me the encouragement to fulfill my dreams, and oh ya, thank you Nur for waiting 3hrs for me outside the school wile im in the interview..I juz hope it will give me a new life and a better prospect in my career..
So yeah, It has been a long entry, i juz wana pour out some of my concerns and share my joy here..
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1. ive moved

Ive officially moved my Blog from Multiply to here..
Multiply are gettin more and more complicated now..I simply hate the new layout and loading takes sooooo damn long; i duno whtr its my computer problem or its the website problem..
Aniway, im still learning how to use this blog here, so hopefully ill get a better idea soon..