Thursday, August 20, 2009


Hi hi...miss me?? heheh...
yeah my blog's preettty empty rite?? Coz my computer is stupidly slow n i hate to wait n dat explains all...even the layout of this blogspot is different...what the hell happen??

Anyway, work's is fine.. Coping and lotsa learning to do.. but im enjoyin it there thou there's complains from me here n there..hehe

Nutin much to say actuali coz my mind's empty..juz out of random..n also to extend my congrats to my dear gf, Sue who had given birth to finally a boy!! i also wana a baby boy!!hmmm...

N also on a lighter note, juz wana give all my support to my another gf, liz, whose both dads are in hospital..One critically ill while the othr hav some blood complications.. I hope evrytin's gona b alrite for u and be strong coz evrytin that happen has a reason behind it,so hold on, gal!

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Saturday, August 8, 2009

12. Lost

Ive not been sleeping, eating and thinking well.. i dunno whthr its the reaction to the news.. I wonder y it still bothrs me when ive tried so hard to let it go...
It didnt ever cross my mind I could ever have this moment to myself.
Where all my thoughts crashed, where my mind stopped functioning.

It hurts, yes it did.

It hurt more knowing that I caused the pain upon myself.

This pain, Its too familiar, the pain ive felt few yrs back..

I recovered, my pain gone. But the wound just wouldnt heal.

I believe god will give what I deserve. Nothing less, nothing more.

Im helpless and so lost, I leave it to God.

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Monday, July 27, 2009

12. a bitch STILL

ive actually gotten over you, really but seeing you last Sat was reali not a good thing.. Everything seems to flash back again and again...
Your words, your lies and your empty promises never seemed to go in hand with what you said to me; "I am a lady and i perfectly understand how you feel"..Oh damn you..u never reli do...
And staring at me doesnt help, dun be a coward.. Bitching behind my back, checking out my profiles and trying to find out more about me, wat's your problem??
You seriously need to take care of yourself first.. I dun nid xtra care from you..
seriously, i dun wan to be reminded of you but i just cant help it and having nowhere else to pour my hatred words, i pen it down here...
I dun care if you gona read it or whoeva is gona pass it to you coz you wana play this game first, rite??
I just hope one fine day, the same thing..oops sorry THINGS you did to me will happen to u or i just hope your sickly father or mother will rot in hell..
Coz i tink your parents have not brought you up well to mind your own shits..
i may not be as good or an angel but at least i dun go around snatching other people's boyfriend..
so juz bug off, you BITCH.
i dun wana display your name here coz it will dirty my blog..i dun wan my things to be as filthy as pls MYOB

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Friday, July 24, 2009

11. LOVE

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two

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Wednesday, July 15, 2009


Yeah ive been on hiatus for at least a wile..
Been wanting to blog actually, but im super super tired...
Duno whether its the work or just me..
My body's aching and mind's not working...

so wwen im ready to update again, i will..

till then tk cr my lovely peeps....

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Wednesday, July 1, 2009

9.3 Days...

Its my third day officially teaching at Eden.

My first day was very very tiring.. I had two boys under my care and surprisingly I came back feeling tired and It felt like I cant even feel the floor anymore.. I had to chase one of my boy cause he was super sensitive to niose. A bit of screaming or screeching can cause him to react and run out of the class.. So i end up chasing after him everytime...
My second boy was super impatient. He cant wait for anyone.. Ask him to wait and he will start banging his head on the wall or start to scream... So imagine my firts day..

My second day was much much better...They were more settled and made them follow the routines more strictly.. So it wasnt as bad as my first day.. Still there were screaming and banging heads but less chasing were done...

Today's the third day there and it seemed things are fallin in... A lot of paper works had to be done and task folders had to be self made.. So we are rushing for all these things to be ready before our consultants come in the classes...

Though tiring, i flt it were so much of an enriching experience.. Alot of people duno wats autism is... Most people will judge that a child with autism had behavioural problems, but in actual fact the dun... They only do not noe how to explain their feelings and express it so therefore they will bang their heads or scream or floor when they are very very stress...

So teaching and understanding them really needs PATIENCE...especially for me i must be always remind myself that...

i hope the journey's will get interesting as days numbered...

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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

8.Reality Check

The holiday
I cant believe i slept from 5pm to 9pm... thats four hours!!
Since holidays, im having insomia almost every day... Cant sleep wile others are dreaming away...

Now that im back from K.L n work has started, the clock hadmswitched back its timing...
K.L trip was fun! Despite having to quarrel with the stupid GRO from the Quality Hotel, the rest was splendid... Never do much shopping actually coz busy buying the 'kain' for my aunties and mummy..

The food at Rebung was splendin... All the Peranakan and Nyonya dishes... Very tasty la....Anyone going K.L should go and eat there...
Many thanks to cuzin Fir and his friend Azlan, for showing us around the city..

The reality
K.L aside and back to reality... My first day at Eden yesterday was great... Nutin much to do..Some administrative things like issuing the school pass, my email add and table was done early in the morning... then Juz reading up the students profile and learning more about Autism... pretty interesting as alot of facts about Autism i didnt noe! A lot of learnin to do...
Today's the second day there, setting up the classroom and doing the IEP's.. pretty blurrr still actually...hehhe

I dunno wat it will be when school re opens but ill still giv my every effort and heart to it... So will update more when the real thing starts and good nyte peeps!

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